Life as a mom of two...

Some days are hard. Some days are comical. Some days are lazy. Some days seem to repeat themselves. Some days are great. Some days are crazy. Some days are fun. Some days I don't get ready. Some days I don't even get dressed... But you know what? Some days I see little glimpses of heaven through my girls' eyes.

I live for the moments when Grace puts her soft, little arms around my neck and whispers into my ear, "I love my mommy." Or when I hear Lainey chattering to herself after a nap and feeling excited to be able to hold her again. I LOVE watching Lainey's eyes light up when I enter the room and having that feeling that she KNOWS I am her mommy. I love knowing that they just barely came from heaven and that they are teaching me more than I will EVER be able to teach them.

I love being "reminded" of my worth from them. There are days when I worry about my hair looking right, loosing weight or not feeling like I am good enough but when I look into their bright blue eyes I am reminded that they love me even with all of my many flaws. I am the one they want to tuck them in at night and that is all the assurance I need.

I love watching the gleam in Grace's eyes when Bart and I take her to try something new. She has that amazing innocence that children posses making them excited for the challenge. She doesn't fear that she won't be able to or that she will look silly... She is just excited to have a new experience in life. Like bowling... she LOVES it.

I love the way they make me laugh. The way that Grace melts my heart. Like the day she was SO ornery. She was naughty and I was loosing my patience. I finally sat down with her after time out and said, "Grace, why are you so sad today?" I will never forget her reply,"I am so sad, Mommy cuz I need you to HOLD me!" And I did. I held that sweet little girl until she didn't want to be held anymore.

I laugh at the way Lainey throws HUGE fits. If you take something away from her... WATCH OUT! She got a hold of a slice of apple Grace had been eating and when I took it away from her the neighbors probably thought she was injured. She can throw a mean tantrum... and she's only 6 months old :)

Grace can be naughty herself... Like just last week when she asked if she could put some lotion on in the bathroom and I told her no... But she kept asking and asking an asking. So I sent her to her room for a little time out and came back to find this.....

It was one of those moments where you are trying so hard not to laugh because you should be mad... but you give up and laugh and take pictures.

I could sit back for hours and watch Grace and Lainey play together. No one else in this world can make Lainey laugh like grace does. They are hysterical together. The simplest things get them going and they laugh and laugh and laugh. Like Grace running towards Lainey when she is in the highchair. For some reason that is the FUNNIEST thing in the world to them. I can't help but feel that they are such good friends already because it wasn't too long ago that they were friends in Heaven, talking about coming down to earth to begin their journey. I know they remember each other.

Simply put... I adore my girls. I love everything about them. I love being their mommy. And even though its not always rainbows and roses its worth every moment. They aren't going to want me to hold them forever. They will only be little for so long and I am determined to enjoy every second. Heavenly Father has blessed me and blessed me and continues to do so and for that I am SO thankful.

Families are forever... I know that for sure.