There isn't much to blog about right now... I'm just big and huge and trying to stay out of the heat :) I am ready for this baby to come. Mother nature keeps teasing me. Honestly, I don't know what going into labor naturally feels like. I was induced with Grace... So this is all new to me.
I try to just ignore the Braxton Hicks contractions that come pretty regularly in the evenings because they don't really hurt. But then I start getting excited when they wake me up in the middle of the night because they are really strong. But by morning. . .NOTHING. So I am just waiting.
On Monday I had my midwife check me and I was 40% effaced and dialated to 2cm. So at least things are on the right track. My body is doing what it is supposed to . . . but I could be dialated to 2cm for weeks....
Yesterday was kind of a sad day for me. I had this emotion hit me like a brick wall when I thought about this being the last few days or weeks that I will have alone with Grace. I love being her mommy, teaching her things, spending time with her and watching her grow. . . I know I will always do these things but it will be different when my attention is split between two little angels instead of just one. So we had a mommy daughter day yesterday. I took her to the park and she played on the slide and the swings. We had a picnic and played some more. Then later, after dinner we went out for ice cream. I think I needed it more than she did. I hope with all my heart, every day, that she knows how much I love her. That I would do ANYTHING for her. I think she knows.... I hope she knows... Because it is true. I love that girl with all that I am . . . and I think I am ready for my heart to double in size so that I can love another one just the same. So come on out Lainey! I'm ready!
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5 comments:
Glad you had a good mommy-daughter date, and soon to be mommy-daughters dates! :-) Lainey and Grace are two lucky ducks!
That post made me cry! You are such a good mommy and those little girls are so lucky to have you! I am so excited for little Lainey to be here...we can't wait to meet her :o) I love you tons and can't wait to see you soon!
I am so excited for you. It is a total mind game waiting for a baby to come natural. I had false painful labor FOREVER before I actually went in. It is so frusterating. I can't wait to see what this little baby will look like. You are a good mom, and it is a wierd feeling having your second. I remember looking at Ella and just crying I felt so bad for her that I was bringing in someone to take her attention away. But I soon found out that it was the nicest thing I ever did for her. Really. Well that was a long comment.
I won't lie, it is hard to get that special one on one time with your kids once you have more than one. But it's worth the effort you put in to have it. Also, you'll love watching your two little girls play together, almost as much. It makes me so happy when I watch Lincoln and Ivan being best little buddies and doing things together. Hang in there, Lainey is almost here!
Paige...your time will come fast and you would have a beautiful precious bady in your arms soon.
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