Random Ramblings...

I'm so glad I'm not her, or her, or her... but rather I am me. I am unique. My thoughts are no one else's but my own.  I am the only one who REALLY knows who I am on the inside, what my thoughts and feelings are... What my deepest fears, hopes, wishes and dreams are. Unless I decide to share them with you. But even then... How is it possible for me to express to you in words what a feeling feels like? But I try...

But that is what is great about being me... They are mine and mine alone and it is my choice to share or not... In the beginning it was scary to share but now it is easy.

I share a piece of me with you and you share yourself with me. That is what makes us one. Because we don't share those deep things with anyone else but each other. Isn't that fascinating to think about? Well to me it is. That is what makes us love each other more and more. Because you know my weird, quirky, deep thoughts and philosophies and even if you disagree you love me just the same... or more because of them. And I know yours....

It wasn't always this way. We used to be two completely separate people. It is weird to think I spent so many years not even knowing you existed. I would share bits of myself with friends or family or people I cared for... but, it was broken up... the things I shared. In different pieces. But now that we have created a life together I share most of them with you. We are still two different people but our lives are so intricate with one another... we have a home together, we work together, we cry and laugh together, we figure out the hard things together, we have fun together, we have created flesh and bone together... so it is like we are one. And that is really an awesome thing.

I very much enjoy the friends that you and I have. And to be honest there are things I like to talk to girls about and you like to talk to boys about and that is ok. We need other people in our lives but I am certainly grateful I have you. Because as cliche as it is you are a piece of who I am now... and with out you I would be half of a person... maybe not really because I will always be me... but because I have shared so much of who I am with you we have grown together. There are parts of you that are just you and parts of me that are just me but somewhere in the middle you and I intertwine. And you know what? I like it. Even more than that... I like knowing we have that forever... Even if you are not physically here with me we will always be together. We promised that to eachother and it makes me smile. I love you.

The soul attracts that which it secretly harbors; that which it loves, and also that which it fears. It reaches the height of its cherished aspirations. It falls to the level of its unchastened desires - and circumstances are the means by which the soul receives its own.

James Allen (1864 - 1912)